finished in 2023

i just........ want to know what it feels like

i thought i was watching a lovely cute sweet fluffy lighthearted romance film of my dreams, but now i am so so sad it hurts. i loved this so much :(

unpopular opinion which i am too afraid to even write here (even though no one reads these thoughts lol) is that the camerawork just was not my cup of tea sadly. i loved the actors and the story a lot, but also at the same time the story didn't really give them any tension or romance. they were supposed to be (more or less) obsessed with each other, but this whole time i just kept asking why, since i didn't feel any tension - or maybe i just wanted to feel MORE. like, so much more of it. anyway, i will be thinking about that ending 

this is exactly how i imagine falling in love must feel like <3

once again, i hate the fact that i am not better with words and therefore, cannot articulate how much this story means to me, how much it affected me, how much in love i am with all of it. i will never recover. they were just so in love!!

my beloveds <3

jiang yanli my lovely girl my beloved eldest daughter in the family my one and only love you deserve the whole entire world you will always be loved by me. also xiao zhan please let me talk to you

this drama taught me that i have a limit when it comes to angst and sad endings because my god did it hurt. doesn't help that it is also so incredibly hozier-florence-tamino coded it makes me want to poke my eyes out

will always be a fan of the lee dohyun being a father to adorable twins cinematic universe :) <3

and another one for the “if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more” list! made me so incredibly happy, the plot and characters are everything to me <3

this drama deserves all the stars from me, solely because they took my favourite i'll find you in every lifetime trope and adapted it so beautifully and so sweetly! truly the sweetest drama ever made (with an occasional heartbreaking episode, but alas that's also what i am here for) <3 ding yuxi and yang chaoyue have the cutest chemistry and they were the perfect co-stars and i am in love with both of them. can't even pick my favourite lifetime because it's all soo sweet oh my god who needs sugar when this story exists ₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎