I am among those fans who have been waiting for this drama to air, when it was first announced, with the cast-side of things, since I am a fan of Luo Yunxi (Leo Luo), and I also like Bai Lu as an actress as well. This isn't the first time they paired up, since they were pair as a CP in Love is Sweet! (Those who have not watch that drama yet, do go check it out)!

Anyways, where do I start? I guess I will say that this drama really can hurts differently, because when those scene hurts, it can really hurts! (Ahh Tantai Jin deserves a hug!!!) But what kind of "drama" will it be if it doesn't have those angsty dramatic plots, right? Let's start off with the characters! I felt like how I feel towards the characters, is depending on which role they played as, or just some scenes that make me like them, some don't so I guess when it comes to characters in this story, I have some-what mixed feelings....

THIS IS WITH AN EXCEPTION FOR ONE CHARACTER, AND WHO HAS THIS HONOUR?! IT'S............ TANTAI JIN!!!
Because for Tantai-Jin, I actually love him from the BEGINNING-TO-THE-END, YES, FROM THE BEGINNING TO THE END~!

Tantai Jin played by Luo Yunxi is a complex character, which Yunxi did a marvellous job in his acting ability that can bring out the multi-dimensional character, that has different contrasts to each of the characters he played as: Ming Ye, which he is the righteous God of War from the Past (Bore' Life), Original Devil God (when he was first introduced to us at the beginning), and the him 10,000 (or many millennia) later, which we came to learn about his back story as Tantai Jin and we grew to love his character, whether he is Tantai Jin, or the Devil God, for me, personally, I just love him from the beginning to the end OR Cang Jiu Min, which he has a mix of Tantai Jin and Ming Ye in him, as he is Tantai Jin, but want to stick to the path of the side of "good(heaven)".

Like I said, for me, Tantai Jin is my personal favourite character in this series, and I love how Yunxi expresses, and brought out this character to life, it was said that his novel character is much darker towards the Female Lead (Li Su Su), I haven't read the novel, but from the sounds of things, I am personally glad he was changed in the live-action/drama. I also want to highlight that Tantai Jin does somewhat low-key reminds me of Luo Binghe in Scum Villain, for the fact that the similarities in both of these characters lies in the fact that his path that he walks on really depends on whether he met the love of his(Tantai Jin we came to love) life vs he didn't in the past (the Devil God as portrayed as at the beginning, episode 1), before Li Su Su went back in time to change him, and taught him what it's like to love/feel love on his end).

The original Devil God will never understand Tantai Jin feelings when he embraced his Devil God status because the difference between them is the Original Devil God lacks love/doesn't have love whereas the Tantai Jin has love in him.

Even when they are the same person(as Devil God), but it is their experience that shaped them on who they turned out to be in the end.

I love the contrast how it shows the two version of them to be honest. It's an interesting highlight to point out what you go through and your experience can shape on who you become in the end.

I actually don't blame how the original Devil God turned out (as we saw at the beginning in episode 1), since I took that as a different time line where that Tantai Jin went through a much crueler experience and LSS never came into his life and light the darkness in his heart. If there was a LSS 1.0 from that time line then that Devil God will not be as heartless and cold as he was at the beginning..

Considering his life and what he went through I can understand why he turned out that way in the end..No one was there to show him love. It's all betrayal one after another. There's no love in the original Devil God but hatred so it's understandable when compared to the Tantai Jin 2.0 that we came to love because SuSu changed him and gave him a different life experience.

Anti-Villain or not, I still love him on my end, because to me, those Tantai Jin kills is really deserving of the kill, the Devil God that we came to love in the end, when Li Su Su went back in time to change his past, which lead to a new future/present time, of the Tantai Jin who have love in his heart, the love he holds for Li Su Su (Ye Xi Wu) is really deep that it really hurts at the same time, when at times I don't feel that Li Su Su give him equal the love/devotion she has for him (in return).

Which comes to the next character, Li Su Su / Ye Xi Wu, played by Bai Lu. Honestly, I have mix feelings when it comes to her character, my feelings for her is more leaning towards dislike. I don't like her character and how it's written... My biggest problem and complaint about her is that her belief/trust and love for Tantai Jin isn't strong enough for me to love her. I mean, if she doesn't trust him, then be honest about it, I don't like that fact that she said she trusts him one minute, but as soon as something goes wrong she is quick to judge him harshly. What's sad for me, is that when she came to say she trusts Tantai Jin by that time, I no longer can believe she really meant it, and its all just empty words, because she has shown me otherwise in the past. She said so herself, that she has a prejudice against Tantai Jin, which from her side, it's kinda understandable I guess, given that he is the Devil God of the future... BUT it's the inconsistency that I don't like. If she doesn't really trust him, then don't give Tantai Jin hope and tell him she does, when not long later, she misjudged him harshly (that's really off-putting for me).

The moment Li Su Su decided to set her mind to kill Tantai Jin in their wedding night, I no longer can like/love her nor can I support the pairing like a fan would..... I can never forgive what she's shown me then. The fact that she will really attempt to kill Tantai Jin at that time, with those ice spikes/needles, which was grown from his love for her, she was going all out... If it weren't for the Heart-Scale thingy that protected Tantai Jin, he would have died!! but the first thing Li Su Su showed me was shocked that the Heart Scale protected him, and her despair that the last two spikes shattered, she didn't even shown concern at all about Tantai Jin well-being but her despair in failing her mission!!! (Honestly, I know some people is okay on that scene, but I AM NOT!). I did hope that she will get better in the later half and she getting her character development, but she just continue to disappoint me in the end.

When she question and doubt his love for her... The way Tantai Jin expressed it though his micro expression really hurts...

Why can't she believe in his love for her?
Why can't she believe there isn't just one Devil God out there? But the Tantai Jin who now is the Devil God is NOT the same as the original devil god which lack love?

These are all questions I was asking on my end when those moments arises for me, but they are rhetoric questions, that I already got my answer, and that is... She didn't love Tantai Jin enough to trust him on her end... I honestly wish and was hoping she will improve for me for the remaining of the episodes, but she didn't....

Honestly, I have mixed feelings for her. Right now, I felt like the more I think about her, the more I end up DISLIKING her, so I think I should really stop and not think about it anymore. There are moments I like coming from her, but there are also moments, where I felt like I want to smack her on my end... For being cruel when there's no reasons to be.. She's just making it hard for herself and Tantai Jin tbh

Also, the final scene before Li Su Su sacrificed herself, those flashbacks that she shown Tantai Jin, almost to the point that she's labelling the present Tantai Jin (which is from a different time-line) into the Devil God(from her time line at the beginning) who have killed his sect and father etc... The way she said it, the way she looked at him, even when Tantai Jin said it's not him etc etc, felt like to me, she have labelled him to that same Devil God that committed those crimes... Why do Tantai Jin, from a different time-line be convicted into those crimes that he didn't commit on his end? She was really cruel then... And the fact that she said that "May we never meet each other in next life, thereafter" was just CRUEL!

As far as main pairing: Tantai Jin and Li Su Su goes, to be honest, I am only holding onto this pairing for Tantai Jin since I know how much he loves her, but I can't say I felt equally on how I feel towards Li Su Su, since in the overall story, I can't say I like some of her actions when it comes to her showing me her love for him, where she is willing to kill Tantai Jin through a misunderstanding, but for Tantai Jin the difference in contrast is that for someone like Tantai Jin who absolutely cannot stand betrayal on his end, he will forgive Li Su Su over and over again, and he will NOT kill her (like he would for those others who betrayed him)! This is why when it comes to love/display of affection what Tantai Jin surpass (in the overall) in terms of appeals, Li Su Su failed *cough* Wedding Night *cough* where she will use the one thing which came from Tantai Jin love for her to attempt to kill him....

You know what also pisses me off the most is that during their time when Tantai Jin shows her the Bore life he created for her... She actually said to him that she regret loving him.

But when she said in the final episode there's so many words she wanted to tell him

And Tantai Jin said he's listening....

She told him that she won't tell him, but she will the next time they met...(I actually thought we will get that but nope, it's a troll)

And I HATE this because this is a moment we will NEVER see on screen...

So yeah to me, she really is the cruelest FL when it comes to her love for him

I admit she does love him but it's honestly no where near as close as Tantai Jin love for her....

We saw in those 500 years TTJ go through hell to find her again but for LSS, in the end, in that ending , it felt like she have accepted the ending on her end. That's just how it is.... She didn't even try to find him again or show her longing for him to the same extent he had for her in those 500 years.

I rather trade in the fact that she don't have a daughter yet and see Tantai Jin return to her in the very last minute... And shes been looking for him through out these 500 years....That she ACTUALLY TRIES TO LOOK FOR HIM OR WAIT FOR HIM! THAT ENDING IS ANNOYING BECAUSE IT JUST FELT LIKE SHE ACCEPTED IT AND THAT'S IT... WHERE TANTAI JIN IS A PART OF A CHAPTER IN HER LIFE AND THAT'S IT LIKE WTF IS WRONG WITH THE WRITERS?!

This ending for Tantai Jin was cruel IMO. I wasn't putting my hopes up for a conclusive ending since I will be happy as long as it's an ending that makes sense and is justifiable where it made our journey and suffering WORTH IT at the end BUt this ending is NOT acceptable to me. To be honest this ending made me appreciate SOTM ending and I wasn't even happy with that ending on my end...

Rewatch Value? I don't think I am going to have withdrawal problems, like I do with some of the other drama's where after the ending, I also won't be watching this drama again because if I watched it again, I will forever be reminded of that UNJUSTIFIABLE ending...

Is this Drama recommended? If an Ending matters to you as a conclusion to the story, then I don't recommend this drama, but if you are someone who doesn't mind BAD ENDING then you can give this one a go.

Honestly for me, if there are words and phrases that sums up how I feel about this drama in the end is...
"Tantai Jin deserves so much better, but his ending was so sad in the end. I wish I would have loved the Female Lead and the Main Pairing better, but in the end, I don't, and that's what's so disappointing because I want to like them, but I can't because of what the Female Lead (Li Su Su) shown me in the Drama. I only accept the pairing because I know how much Tantai Jin loves her, but that's it. It's not because of me loving the pairing..."

Nothing against, Yunxi as Tantai Jin, since like I said, I love his character from beginning to the end, but as far as main pairing goes, I wish I have love them better on my end, I actually want to love them better than how I come to feel in the end, but there are some scenes I don't like coming from what the FL (Li Su Su) shows me... Especially at the ending.. Since the way the writers have it in the drama made Li Su Su felt that Tantai Jin is just a other chapter in her life, and she have accepted it and moved on like wtf. She's got to be the LEAST romantic FL I ever encountered! This is one of the reasons where I wish they stick to the NOVEL ENDING BETTER, and the better portrayal of her love and longing towards Tantai Jin and didn't give up searching for him!

If the drama have her dying together with Tantai Jin and they both live in a different realm or something that would have been acceptable to me than what we were given. Saying this again, I rather trade that ending where she reunite with Tantai Jin over her having a daughter and starting a new chapter of her life instead... -.-

Rant aside, I have some moments where I really did cried, but I wouldn't recommend this drama on my end since the end didn't justify the means to me. If anything I must say is that I adore the costumes and make up in this drama. I love Devil God and when he have the Curls in his hair. It's really charming to me. Music in this drama is nice, I love some of them.

Time to move on and watch Back from the Brink to heal my heart from this traumatizing ending. Being among those who long-waited for this drama, but in the end, I came to not love this drama as much as I wanted to. So I could be a minority in here. Despite saying this, I will always love Tantai Jin on my end; he's my favourite character in this, and I will always remember this drama for him, and someone who really deserves better, but the script writers is just so cruel to not give him a happy ending he deserves ~ forever bitter at this fact!