About THE scene and THE actor -- highlight of entire show

I wanted to rewatch the whole show because of this one scene between Sand and Ray in front of the bar.Perfectly executed dissonance.Sand is verbally convincing us (and Ray) that he is emotionally detached, that he is planted firmly on the ground and not for a second delusional about himself and Ray. When Sand asks about Mew, Ray senses the tension changing and awkwardness rising and before Ray can respond, Sand gives him a smile, releases all the tension with his "Congrats". He does not want Ray to sense anything uncomfortable. He seems even happy for Ray to have succeeded in getting his dream guy. And he is even pushing further and further in convincing Ray, verbally, how Ray will be as happy with Mew and how their friendship becomes pointless because Mew will do all the activities with him and do them better. And in Sands head it continues... 'because I did not do them well enough'. Simple bludgeoning with a hammer the main conclusion of the circumstances: 'it seems I am unnecessary and I should cut all the ties to avoid being hurt more'. All his words about them not being friends anymore and having no things in common allude to his disappointment that he was a temporary place holder for Mew. 'Of course we cannot be friends because we never were'. Blundgeon it once, twice. 'Why would I be friends with you' More. 'We have nothing in common.' And more. And more. Until it stopped being about Ray and more about convincing himself 'they were never meant to be anyway' so he should stop feeling so much hurt.Objectively his words in isolation could sound mature, detached, and really comforting if you do not see this scene with your eyes. True friends with benefits beginning and end.However, Sand's body language is the exact opposite of his words. His pain is almost palpable and sharply contrasts his rational words.First really had outdone himself here. Finest of his acting. He has been always above the average in acting for me, but then those short snippets come to the surface, in each of his dramas, that make you feel that he was meant to do this and never anything else. Acting belongs to him and he belongs to acting.That was one of such scenes. I did not know where First began and Sand finished. They melted into a feeling. Burning sensation of bitterness. Of disappointment. Of trying to disappear because your feelings were invalidated ...and you feel like overcrowding the space. The goal is to disappear and only stay in the memory of your loved one as everything positive and fun and not sad and bitter bother that you feel like in the moment.I simply got chills from this. Ah great job, for real.

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