Different, deep but HEARTBREAKING

I'll try to express my thoughts as best as I can consider english is not my main language but its easier for me to use it in this context.

At the very start I thought I might not have like this show this much because of the fantasy in it, I'm more of a reality based stories's girl and I did not like to much the idea of a teddy bear becoming human, but as time passed I've literally fallen in love with the character of Tofu. I did not know Inpitar (the actor behing Tofu) before this show and I found out he's an amazing actor, I loved his acting and I loved the goodness of Tofu.

At the start Nut was not my favorite character since he came out on screen very rude and most times also way too bad to his mother. The way he treats her sometimes went way over what's acceptable in my opinion and if that was reality and not a show I'm not sure I'd accepted to forgive his attitude. I mean, the story explains to us why Nut is like that to his mother and the relationship between them, but still... you can leave her and the house, you do not need to be so violent. Though in the end if we can pass over that initial part you'll learn to empathize with him and be sorry for what he had to go trough while growin up. No kids should ever grown up in such an enviroment.

I'm not a fan of flashbacks in books or movies and this series had a bit too many for me. Though would have been impossible to undertsand the story without them so you sort of deal with this director decision. I still must admit there were way too many and especially with Tarn.. they showed soo much of his past relationship which was not needed to undertsand it and Nut's past.

I think the story was written to show a lot of Nut and Tarn past to make the viewers more attached to Tarn which you'll need to be to not hate the end too much. If you start felling bad for Tarn and Nut and for the fact they loved each other and couldn't be together you'll sort of start feeling sad for them and accept Tarn character a bit more.

When you find out that Tarn is in a coma and the only way for him to ever wake up is for Tofu to disappear, you start knowing that probably a bad end will come soon. You start thinking that the logical end (uluckily) its the one where Tarn (Nut's hige first love) lives and wakes up while Tofu goes back to be a teddy bear (since in real life teddy bears cant be human, the circle of his MIRACLE needs to end). You start thinking of the title, the word miracle and you understand the miracle will have an end and the miracle is that Tarn's LOVE brought Tofu to life. So could they really let him die? When Tofu existence as a human was connected to Tarn's love for Nut...???

Deep inside, you still have hope though that they'll let you have your happy ending in the very end, but NO. NO WAY.
In the last episode they not only decide to make Tofu go back to being a teddy bear, NO. They decided ti KILL him and make him going thorugh the huge PAIN of being poisoned (which we all know its not for sure a painless death). We see his life slowly leave him and we see his heart stop forever and then, we CRY. We do not have any alteratives than crying so bad, so much til the end of the show.

Because not just only he dies, but then he go back being a teddy bear and Nut go back marrying Tarn. We see Tofu having to spend the rest of his life looking at Tarn and Nut together (which in my opinion was a weird choice). They made it look like Tofu was so happy that they are back together and he's so happy he brought them back to each other and also he's so happy to be able to be by Nut's side forever just as 'simple' teddy bear... but wait a minute.. really?? Tofu LOVED Nut so much and he was so jealous as well of Tarn.. so how come that at the end he was just this happy theddy bear to accept stay there forever seeing the other two so in love??? Plus.. they give you SENTENCES and moments between Tofu the bear and Nut the last 10 minutes of thw show in which it looks like that Nut surely knows that Tofu the bear is the same as Tofu the human and he still loves him... cuddle him... and says he'll love him forever (which is a bit weird as a vibe. He gave me the vibe of one with two love at the same time).

At the end the show talked about very important matters for LGBTQ+ community and for parents influence in kids future, it was a great cast and acting. The story was beaituful and I enjoyed it overall but I did not like that end. I cried way too much and Tofu's death was something at today, almost a week after the last ep, I still can't accept. I feel sad if I think about it and I keep thinking Nut and Tofu deserved to be happy together forever. You can tell me the end was logical, that it must have been that way but NO... In my heart the right end will always be Nut and Tofu married and happy for the rest of their life.

BYE

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