so good it hurts

"i wanted to find my own universe. in my once dark heart, i now have one little star shining so bright. i have found my universe with all our stories."

i wasn’t prepared how raw and painful this was going to be. it was completely different from how sweet and wholesome the first season was.

first off, seojoon. i was genuinely hurting for this man. i wanted to go inside the screen just to hug him and tell him he didn't do anything wrong to deserve the kind of treatment from the person he thought he'd spend his life with. i was like his best friend throughout the show because i wanted to hit him just to make sense out of him. face palming myself when he kept coming back just to get the worst treatment back. it was genuinely heartbreaking to see someone who has so much love to give even when he didn't grew up nor surrounded with it willingly endure all that. personally, wouldn't dare to think for a second to take someone back after getting that treatment the first time around.

second, jiwoo,it wasn't exactly easy to understand this man but i do, only to an extent on what he felt during the relationship. his feelings at that time were valid. he had his own problems and fears and those fears tend to come out in the worst way possible which lead us to make the worst decisions ever but what i don't understand was how he treated seojoon after. i've come to know him in S1 as someone who might seem reserved but is actually a very warm person and to see him treat seojoon like that, the one person he always protected even in the smallest things, was maddening. what was even worst was he was doing it intentionally, he did everything to make seojoon hurt, to push him away. not knowing that was actually his worst fear, seojoon finally giving up on him because how lucky you are to have someone unconditionally love you in spite of your flaws, faults, and weaknesses and yet be so cruel to have that someone swallow their pride to beg for your love and take every worst treatment from you just to have you back in their life even if you're not the least bit deserving.

lastly, i don't entirely agree on the writer's view of how one person needs to be more giving in order for the relationship to work but i do agree with the line "in this world, there's no perfect man nor the perfect form of love. it's just a matter of understanding and adapting to each other through love. it's about learning to speak one's mind rather than put one's pride ahead" because what is love if not learning and growing to be better individuals to each other. as much as i love how sweet and easy the S1 were, i love how depth S2’s story got because i was able to relate with each character and i get to be invested with them; to feel for them, to hurt and learned from them.

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